Nejc Lešek’s diary

Today is Sunday, December 30, 2007.

Well I just wanted to tune in and say, hi,  how are you doing? I’m ok, the new year is close and that is a cool thing, new adventures. Ok have fun, talk soon!

Nejc L.

Today is Sunday, December 23, 2007, 5:30 AM.

 Yes, I can’t sleep, I’m not even trying, I didn’t even lay down even if I don’t have to do so much work now, I’m just sitting here on my chair and listening to music, just surfing the popular news portals. I actually reported a problem with the web site racunalniske-novice.com, but they probably already know. I didn’t check their web site for two days or so, so the error on the site could be there for some time. But anyway, I think it’s our duty to report problems like this, even if they already know, it’s nothing wrong if we report it again, the problem is if no one reports it and they don’t even know. So I guess there will be no sleep for me tonight, well why would I sleep if I don’t feel like it? There is no point forcing myself, I think you know why I don’t feel like laying down.

 Take care,

Nejc L.

Hej guys…

Today is Sunday, December 23, 2007, 1:30 AM.

What to do when your ex with which you spend almost 3 years tells you that she’s got a date? That soo fucking painful for me, you can’t possibly imagine how it is if you never experienced this, I mean man… Sure I though about going out with others now when I’m single but… couldn’t really do it, I can’t go through one single day, not thinking about how should I let her go, you can’t just do it like “bang” and you’re fine… And on the top of all, Christmas time is here and the new year is near, for me, right now, it’s all fucked up. A few days ago, me and my buddies went to some pubs, even though we all hate drinking and alcohol and stuff like that. Well we went to check the girls in there (friends trying to help you forget I guess) but I couldn’t focus, there was this particular moment, when we wore playing table football and I was all distracted and getting goal after goal. Later on my eye caught Suzana with her friends and one guy in the bar and I just went out and wanted to go home. The guys convicted me to go somewhere else with them and I went…. I was a hard and strange day for me… Today… I don’t know what to do with myself. There are a lot of guys saying: ”Dude you go it all, you got a nice body and are a secesful software developer and brand owner and stuff…”.  Well, I’m everything what I always wanted to be, that is for sure, but I’m sill not happy, I CAN’T live single! That’s no life for me! An hour ago I started eating popcorn, soon after that I got a call from Suzana and she told me that she’s going to the cinema with this guy tomorrow and from that moment I didn’t touch popcorn. A bet that you know that feeling of emptiness, I can’t get rid of it…

 Take care,

Nejc L.

Hi!

Today is Thursday, December 20, 2007.

 Gloss is ready, it’s done!!! All done!! Totally!!! I’ll let you know more later, now I have to publish it, it should be fast because I prepared everything before.

Nejc L.

Hey!

Today is Tuesday, December 18, 2007, 1:30 AM.

Work, work and some more work. I have really overcome myself in this few days, this was the ultimate struggle, trying to push myself to the limits. Well it’s known now that we will miss the first dead line for just a few hours. I personally think that that is a really nice result. Take a look from my perspective, the release date was set a few months before we set it out officially, now imagine that you work for such a long time on multiple products and you are able that to actually catch the dead line. Just look at some large computer game companies, they set their dead lines and that re-set them sometimes for even a year.  I hope you’ll enjoy GLOSS experience as well as Suzan Business and all other things from our software pack. That’s it for now. Soon all other multimedia software will be unnecessary =) it’s crazy how powerful Gloss and Suzan Business are.

And one more thing… I would like to say: “Suzana I Love You, and I sill care about you soo much”. Today would be our anniversary…

Take care,

Nejc l.

HIII!!

Today is Sunday, December 16, 2007.

I can’t talk about anything else than work, I’m programming for a few days now without any breaks, it’s crazy. We are falling behind and the dead line is closer and closer. The thing that I’m really worried about is the new game, I didn’t have enough time to actually done that promised work, this is hell, but we’ll get the dead line! I can’t talk more right now, see you later.

Nejc L.

Hello!

Today is Tuesday, December 11, 2007.

Now many of you may wonder why I set release date on December 18. Well it’s not a business reason, me and Suzana started dating on 18th and it would be our anniversary. This month is very special to me, we celebrated our first bigger - half year, anniversary on December 18, 2005. I want to dedicate this release to her and us or what we ones were.

Take care,

Nejc L.

Hey.

Today is Monday, December 10, 2007.

Release is close. I’ve got more problems every day. Since I’m single I just can’t focus on work, everything distracts me and my thoughts are really confused. There is so much to do until December 18, we won’t miss the dead line, trust me on that, but please understand that this is very hard for me, I have to force myself all the time to work. I’m soo tired…

Nejc L.

Hi!

Today is Sunday, December 09, 2007 in late evening.

This is one of the hardest days in my life. I had to listen some people who don’t even know me, blaming me for break-up with Suzana. They were saying lies and as much as I tried to tell them that they can’t judge me because they don’t know me the more no one believed me. There was one exception, one girl believed me. A subject of discussion was my ex-ex-girl (not Suzana) and I swear to god that I don’t want to have anything to do with her, she played large part at destroying what I love. She and some of her friends spend last 3 years talking crap about me. They are trying to make me look like my father. He cheated my mom even before I was born. I’ve been trying all my life, to be better than he, to treat woman like a queen. Do you even know how does it feel when you spend almost 3 years, trying to be the best boyfriend on the world and that someone starts to blame you for things you never would done? People can think whatever they want about me, but not in this subject, I was always a caring partner and I gave it all away just to spend a second more with Suzana and I’m sure every single one of my friends would confirm that. Sometimes I wish I would never get to know my ex-ex-girl, I just don’t understand how was I able to love her in the past. Sure we are friends now in a way, not really good friends… always arguing, sometimes I simply hate her, a lot of times I wish that I would never talk to her again, I’ll tell you my life story ones and you’ll totally understand my feelings, trust me. These are hard times for me, even  if I look ok and act ok, I’m not ok. Just 8 more days until release and everything is starting to fall a part, even more. I mean lets separate my love life and business and even now both parts are doing pretty bad, because they are linked and it doesn’t matter how much I try, it’s simply hard. And than people are expecting to get buch of software and best tech support, but they never think , how do we feel, are we happy? That’s it for now, I’m tired, this was a hard day. A lot of physical and mental training and a lot of trouble.

Take care,

Nejc L.

Hey,

Today is Friday, December 07, 2007.

 It was a strange day today. A lot of arguing, sadness and anger. Anyway me and my friend decided that we are going to do a show on beer and flowers festival in 2008, I’ll be awesome, trust me.

Nejc L.